Support

I am so blessed to have such amazing people surrounding me in my life.  I was so afraid to share about my decision to have weight loss surgery and not because I was nervous about my decision but about what people would say. I have had nothing but support since starting to share and I am so blessed.

 When deciding to start this journey I made a decision that this would be a full mind/body and soul change for me.  I decided that I would not embark on this journey unless I was willing to put 100% into this.  I went to a weight loss support group through the program I am in and a gentleman spoke of his experience having surgery, and he said something that has become my mantra since early in the process.  “You will get out of this process, what you put into this process”.  

This is not an easy journey to take, the road to even get to surgery has been filled with appointments, requirements, challenges, and meeting goals that the doctors have placed on me.  I have had to change everything about how I think about food and process my thoughts around food and why it has been so important and such a focal point in my life thus far.

I look forward to sharing this path with those who want to follow so that I might be able to inspire or inform those who are considering surgery to become a  healthier you.

 

A journey begins with a single step, but the journey cannot begin until you take the first step.

 

And so the Journey Begins

I reached a moment in my life during the spring of 2013, a moment that I will always remember.  I decided not to care any longer about what others thought about how I should lose weight and I finally decided to do something for myself.

 I am and probably always will be the type of person that is overly concerned about what others think about her.  I worry that someone will not like me or think ill of me and I will change what I am thinking if I think someone else doesn't agree with me.  I want to make everyone happy and I certainly do not want to cause waves in anyone's life.  So, I often put aside my own personal opinions and feelings so I can be a chameleon and fit in with whatever group I am around.

 I hate controversy and I hate knowing I have upset someone, so for me to take a stand and not care what anyone else feels about my decision is huge for me.

 I have decided after 4 years of careful consideration to have gastric bypass surgery. (Yes and here is where everyone gasps).  I am having gastric sleeve surgery to be precise.  I am so confident in my decision that this is the right thing for me at this time in my life and if I do not do this I am certain that I will not  be able to live a happy and fulfilling life with my husband and daughter. No one but me lives in my body and knows how hard I have fought through the years to lose weight and no knows how much pain I am in on any given day and how badly I want to live life to the fullest. No one knows how many people on both sides of my family suffer from weight related illnesses and how genetic this is or could comprehend how I would feel about having to be immobile and ask for help because my knees have given out or I have to take insulin for the rest of my life.

 It has been a long road to get to this point, 6 months to be exact of going to classes, appointments, nutrition visits, physical therapy, getting cleared through pre-operative testing ECT.  I have sought out the best program I could find and I believe it will afford me the best results possible.  I also extremely excited that my husband will be going through this journey with me as well a few months from now.

 So there it is folks, the girl who is afraid of being different and causing waves is taking a risk and getting surgery so that I can live a more fulfilled life.  Keep following along if you want to learn more about my process leading up to surgery which is schedule for 1/21/14, and surgery itself and after.

 
Oh and if you decide to follow along and decide to leave negative comments you are welcome to but be assured I have thought it all and have don’t care if you think I am taking the easy way out, because I know this is the hardest thing I have ever done in my life and am proud of myself!!